tidings

it's been an action-packed couple of months. we've gone from:
to:needless to say, we've been riding the emotional roller coaster. it's so odd- the first couple months i didn't dare say anything to anyone. it was a cross between not wanting to jinx it to not really wanting to accept the reality of how much our lives are about to change. even if it's for the better. because everything i'd thought awesome before now needs to be looked at with a more scrutinizing eye. the one-and-a-half bedroom apartment that had been HUGE before now seems cramped. the two door car that i love now seems a bit inconvenient. the bathroom destroying cats that i thought adorable now seem like a handful.

it didn't take me long to figure out there was something going on. right from week one my body started complaining that something odd and foreign was setting up home base inside it. and now- even the figure i once took for granted is now misshapen and odd looking. getting an ultrasound a couple weeks ago, though- that changed everything. little bubba was squirreling around turning backflips, swimming the breaststroke, i think at one point a little game of solitaire was laid out. it was at that point things went from: 'holy crap' to 'totally awesome.'

although there's still a little bit of that 'holy crap' there. i mean- we are having a baby, after all.