j bought me a delicious sandwich from this pizza place we go to every other week. they sell large pizzas for really cheap every tuesday, so that's been our default tuesday meal. being pregnant, i had a hankering for anything OTHER than pizza, so he bought me a delicious omelet sandwich. i gobbled up half, setting the other half into the fridge for lunch the next day.
next day, i unwrapped the sandwich- and there, flattened between the wax paper and the bun, was a 1 1/2 inch orange roach. my first thought- had i missed something in other sandwiches i'd eaten there? were the pizzas always so reliable? i immediately brushed the roach-infested-tasty-sandwich in the garbage. in retrospect i could have used it to demand my money back, but i don't even want to step foot in that pizzeria again. and what if all they did was invite me to get a replacement sandwich? it was bad enough i had several clients to meet with after that. during these meetings, i kept having flashbacks of that gigantic bug who'd probably begun eating my lunch. and who knows what was in the other half the sandwich? the sandwich i ate???
now my stomach churns at the thought of food. i choke it down because i have to, but ... ew. and i have a stomach of iron. is it the pregnancy? or is it seeing a bug in a bite that was intended for my personal digestion?
disgusted am i.
Sunday, January 30, 2011
tidings
it's been an action-packed couple of months. we've gone from:
to:
needless to say, we've been riding the emotional roller coaster. it's so odd- the first couple months i didn't dare say anything to anyone. it was a cross between not wanting to jinx it to not really wanting to accept the reality of how much our lives are about to change. even if it's for the better. because everything i'd thought awesome before now needs to be looked at with a more scrutinizing eye. the one-and-a-half bedroom apartment that had been HUGE before now seems cramped. the two door car that i love now seems a bit inconvenient. the bathroom destroying cats that i thought adorable now seem like a handful.
it didn't take me long to figure out there was something going on. right from week one my body started complaining that something odd and foreign was setting up home base inside it. and now- even the figure i once took for granted is now misshapen and odd looking. getting an ultrasound a couple weeks ago, though- that changed everything. little bubba was squirreling around turning backflips, swimming the breaststroke, i think at one point a little game of solitaire was laid out. it was at that point things went from: 'holy crap' to 'totally awesome.'
although there's still a little bit of that 'holy crap' there. i mean- we are having a baby, after all.
to:
needless to say, we've been riding the emotional roller coaster. it's so odd- the first couple months i didn't dare say anything to anyone. it was a cross between not wanting to jinx it to not really wanting to accept the reality of how much our lives are about to change. even if it's for the better. because everything i'd thought awesome before now needs to be looked at with a more scrutinizing eye. the one-and-a-half bedroom apartment that had been HUGE before now seems cramped. the two door car that i love now seems a bit inconvenient. the bathroom destroying cats that i thought adorable now seem like a handful.it didn't take me long to figure out there was something going on. right from week one my body started complaining that something odd and foreign was setting up home base inside it. and now- even the figure i once took for granted is now misshapen and odd looking. getting an ultrasound a couple weeks ago, though- that changed everything. little bubba was squirreling around turning backflips, swimming the breaststroke, i think at one point a little game of solitaire was laid out. it was at that point things went from: 'holy crap' to 'totally awesome.'
although there's still a little bit of that 'holy crap' there. i mean- we are having a baby, after all.
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